Starting a new project can be laden with obstacles. Inner ‘no’s’ intertwine with the exciting current of leap-taking. It’s a confusing experience.
As the date of my inevitable “comeback” draws closer, I’ve noticed myself feeling wildly uncomfortable. Abandoning internet attention has been life-giving, to say the least. And I’ve worked hard to know myself as enough without it.
So naturally, the texture of resistance I feel is unique this time around.
While taking three years off to grow up and enjoy my life in private has been not only intentional but necessary, the time has come for the next step: integration through tangible action and coming back to, let’s face it, the only career I’m (happily) made for.
This episode is indulgently about me (future episodes, I promise, will be about you), where I dive into answering your questions submitted during a recent AMA on my IG - why I left, what I’ve left behind, and what I’m bringing now.
As I continue to straddle the fine line between comfortable-with-attention performer and blank-canvas-in-the-background therapist, I’m mindful not to throw any of my best qualities out the window. Instead, I reach deep into my psyche to revive the creator and rinse her of shame, allowing her to be expressed with newfound love, compassion, and unrelenting admiration for her strength - because I know the courage it takes to be free.
So here we go again. I publish this episode with pride, with fear, and braced for the awkwardness that comes with the first steps of any worthy pursuit.
If you’re new here, welcome. If you’re returning like me, here’s to us in the pursuit of better loving - within ourselves and with others.
With love,
Laura Ellen
